New Year's Resolutions

How are you guys?
Happy New Year to all of you out there.
Another year has passed and again, we face our past behaviour and start to reflect. Some may think, this is useless, others hope this will be their motivation and I think it's a nice thing for the moment.
Everyone has these feelings. Like a Christmas feeling just before Christmas. And this feeling of an apparently "new beginning" is just the feeling for a New Year. Might as well adjust oneself to a new chapter.

My Resolutions are simple but sincere:

1. I really want to try harder in expressing what I feel by writing it all down. I know from past experience that it can help you so much if you have a lot to sort out in your heart and mind.

2. It's the same every year. I want to maintain a good and healthy figure which I am happy with. It's not important how much I weigh, just that I will be happy with my body. 

a small advice to all you unhappy-with-my-body-people: don't take other people's stares and talks seriously because stares and talks ain't gonna change a thing about your body and how you think of it. Either accept it as it is and be happy with it OR move on. Don't regret loving to eat, Don't regret having to buy a size bigger. Believe that no one has the power to force you into a diet or make you feel bad. 
I know you hear that a lot but try to introspect and confront with what you really want. Is it a nicer and thinner body or is it the satisfaction of being healthy and the FEELING of being beautiful?

3. Be happy as much as I can. Appreciate as many things - food, books, electricity, water, - as possible. I also want to express my love towards my family and friends more often. I know I can be a shithead at times. But if a world apocalypse is ever going to break out, I would let run to your side.

4. Experience new things, ordinary things but always full of heart and good intent.

5. Keep moving, keep my eyes open and be safe. 

So guys, in 2014 nothing will change at all, if you don't take the first step.
Happy New Year!

This is for my best friend, Miriam

Hello my beloved,

if you see this page, you will know that this will be my last present for you.

First things first, I just wanted to let you know that you are everything that has made my life complete and fun. With you, school has been terrific, and daily life became a must. 


I want to thank you for being my friend, my family and....my accomplice...(?).

-- "come to the dark side, I have cookies" --


Second of all, we've successfully left 2013 behind with tons of memories to remember, billions of fun stories to tell and infinite amount of fun like always.

~In my opinion, we can't just hold on to a memory by taking a photo, that's why I didn't put that many photos in here. Just the most beautiful ones :) ~

We've experienced throughout a year:

• what it's like to have a little brother,
• what it's like to eat Belgian waffles,
• what it's like to graduate from High School,
• what it's like to turn 20,
• what it's like to go to university,
• what it's like to move out,
• what it's like to party hard (which is what we do every year, aanyway),
• what it's like to be spontaneous,
• etc.

Third aspect,

I've found a few quotes which kinda happen to apply to our friendship, see what I got:

~Love me now, hate me never, we will stay best friends forever.~
~Friends know how to make you look beautiful, best friends know how to make you feel beautiful.~
~Dear best friend, always remember that after you fall down, I will pick you up. But after I finished laughing.~
~Life would be easier if we were gay.~ (hehe heh hehe :3)
~We'll be best friends forever, because you already know too much.~ (true...)
~I would rather walk with a friend in the dark, than alone in the light.~(Sleeendermaan)

I have to say, that all of these quotes above are really nice...but they still don't express what I feel about you.
But I guess you know anyway because:
Wir bleiben Freunde bis nach dem Tod, und danach, und danach und danach und danach und danach......


I wanna finish this by saying once again: Merry Christmas to you, I hope you liked my presents, if not......aargh just shut up!

With lots of love, Loan

Rant: Get positive already

Moving forward after having a hard time, a bad day or just piled up stress is really difficult sometimes. Everyone has those moments and everyone hates them.

My way of releasing all negative energy is by talking about it with friends or family (those you trust who won't make fun of your problems) and then doing sports. Activity is the best way to distract yourself from boiling over and is also good for your body, in my opinion. 

I'm the kind of person who gets angry/frustrated/sad, then lets it out by screaming/beating/crying and then tries to get over with it really quick by doing sports, or meeting with friends or relax (! totally underrated in my opinion). After that session of overpowering myself, I'm just too fu**ing tired to even think about negative thoughts, emotional moments or whatever was on my mind. 
Silence is much appreciated!

Of course there are people who work it out differently than me but there are also people who just won't get over it! They keep their past within their present, repeat it over and over again. 

For what? Just to feel bad again, I suppose... because I can't see the reason why anyone would want to keep talking about bad moments, lost loves or false friends.

Pleeeeaaase don't drag others into all your negative emotions! I'm a person who can listen to problems and I truly want to help get the good mood back or at least comfort a person in any way possible because it hurts to see friends being hurt or desperate. I understand that people tend to remember the bad things (as a warning system to yourself) more than good things.

But I'm not your trash can of emotions. I too have problems but I don't neccessarily throw them all to you.

And you're (hopefully) not a repeat-button. You don't need to retell your sad time stories a trillion times. 

Be confident and hopeful about your future. Everything changes within seconds anyway. Maybe you will find a new love in the blink of an eye, maybe the things to make you happy lie just around the corner, maybe you've not yet met the right people to be true friends. or  

MAYBE YOU'RE OVERTHINKING......................which is often the case.

Life is too short to be worrying about such small stuff. Truly think about it. None of your worries are life-threatening, am I right?

On the other hand, life is so long, you still have time to experience lots of things. Enjoy everything. Make good memories.

I was tagged...

Good God, I totally forgot about this thing, I found it very funny and Kimpachii introduced it to me but I highly doubt that I will find any other blogger to ask questions to, but since I must abide by the rules:

(Translate the following on your own...I know a few of my Canadian friends learn German now!)

die Spielregeln:

1. Verlinke die Person, die dich getaggt hat.

2. Beantworte die Fragen die dir gestellt worden sind.

3. Tagge anschließend 11 weitere Leute (oder 12 oder 13 oder 14...)

4. Gib den Leuten Bescheid die getaggt wurden.

5. Stelle 11 Fragen an die, die getaggt wurden.

Kimpachiis Fragen:

1. Was habt ihr zuerst gesehen? Japanische Dramen, koreanische oder taiwanesische? Wie kamt ihr dazu?

- Das ist eine gute Frage, wie ich überhaupt mit Dramen angefangen habe, weiß ich nicht mehr aber ich habe das Gefühl, es fing mit japanischen Dramen an. 

2. Was hört ihr zur Zeit mehr? Japanische oder koreanische Musik? Zum Beispiel? Was gefällt euch daran?

- Beides hör ich gar nicht mehr. Da ich aber noch einige koreanische Lieder auf meinem PC habe, und die bei random play nun mal gespielt werden, höre ich ab und zu noch z.B. I'm the best - 2ne1, weil der beat einfach genial ist und das nie langweilig wird.

3. Absolut most favourite Drama/Film ever und wirklich forever?

- Da ich 10 Sekunden nach Anschauen des Filmes oder des Dramas sowieso sofort jedes Detail vergesse, und ich selten etwas erneut schaue, kann ich nicht wirklich sagen, dass ich einen fav hab. W

as ich jedoch gerne schaue ist Baby and Me, weil es herzzerreißend, super süß und super lustig ist, und außerdem noch etwas für die Seele fertig hat. 

Hm, abgesehen davon, dass ich den Film "The Good, The Bad, The Weird" besitze und ihn wegen der lustigen Schauspieler (Song Kang-Ho) und denen, die mich dort entweder an meinen Onkel erinnern (Park Do-Won) oder für die ich im Schlaf schwärme (Lee Byung-Hun) schaue, ist der Film echt sehenswert. Dämlich lustig und actionreich. Den kann man immer wieder gucken. Zwar ist er nicht mein fav favourite aber das gilt bei mir für jedes andere Drama oder jeden anderen Film. 

Was ich mir aber gut als fav Film vorstellen könnte ist der Film A Werewolf Boy, naja ich habe es bisher aber nur einmal geschaut.

4. Habt ihr Schauspieler/innen oder PDs oder Writer, deren Filme oder Dramen ihr fangirl-mäßig verfolgt? Wenn ja welche? Wenn nein, wieso?

- Nur Animes, keine Dramen. STUDIO GHIBLI ist dabei ganz vorne. Mehr dazu muss man nichts sagen. 

5. Guckt ihr lieber Dramen oder Filme? Gründe, Beispiele und evtl. eine Auflistung von Filmen, die lieber ein Drama hätten sein sollen und andersherum, bitte! ;)

- Ich gucke ehrlich gesagt lieber Filme, die sind kürzer und verlangen nicht so viel Zeit. Koreanische Dramen dauern pro Episode ne ganze Stunde (!) ich bin über froh, wenn ich bei ner mündlichen Rezension meiner Schwester höre:"Es hat nur 8 Episoden, also schau es dir an!" und selbst 8 Episoden bedeuten 8h auf dem Po vorm PC sitzen....Außerdem sind Filme meistens nicht so ein auf und ab was die Spannung angeht, guuuuut Dramen heißen nicht umsonst Drama, aber vielleicht ist genau das mein Problem und daher nicht mein Ding. 

6. Welches asiatische Wort oder welcher Satz ist euch, obwohl ihr die Sprache nicht könnt, immer im Gedächtnis geblieben? Woher stammt es, also aus welchem Film/Drama/Lied?

- Ho ho mei ist kantonesisch und bedeutet: Sehr lecker.....das hab ich von meiner besten Freundin aus Kanada gelernt, ich fande es passte zu mir in vielerlei Hinsicht :) Oh und Joe di fun ist auch eines der Sätze, die ich öfters zu hören bekommen habe: Geh früh schlafen.

7. Wenn du für einen Tag ein Drama-Charakter sein dürftest, wer wärst du?

- Darf ich auch ein Anime Charakter sein? 

Wenn ja: Rin aus InuYasha, die kleine, die von Sesshomaru aufgenommen wurde?! Man, ich wünschte, ich würde so sehr von ihm geliebt werden. Oder Ace aus OnePiece <3 

Wenn nein: Chul-Soo aus A Werewolf Boy, ich würde mal gerne wissen, was er während des Verlaufes im Film dachte. Ich wette, es waren alles herzzerreißende Gedanken, die ich ab dem Tag danach (da ich ja wieder Ich selbst wäre) für immer im Herzen speichern werde. Die Mentalität kann einen wirklich verändern!

8. Gibt es eine besondere Kulinarität, die ihr unbedingt mal probieren (oder auch mal selber kochen/backen) wollt?

- Ich wollte Sushi schon immer mal selber machen. Ich informiere mich meistens nicht über Essen, die ich nicht kenne....wie auch? Ich probier alles, aber mir gefällt nicht alles. Ich esse alles, aber mir wird nicht alles gefallen. 

Erst letzte Woche habe ich versucht Fantakuchen selber zu backen, weil ich es noch nie getan habe und ich es schon immer tun wollte, aber es war einfach ein fail und ich werde es nie wieder tun. Seitdem ist die Rubrik "unbedingt mal probieren" für mich erstmal abgeschlossen..

9. Für alle die Hana Yori Dango und Boys Before Flowers kennen: Hanazawa Rui (Oguri Shun) oder Yoon Ji Hoo (Kim Hyun Joong) ?

- Oguri Shun. 1. soweit ich mich erinnern kann (Hah, da kommt das Kurzzeitgedächtnis gegenüber Filme und Dramas wieder) war er ein besserer Schauspieler, was das Emotionale anging. 2. ist Kim Hyun Joong im Realen (naja aus WGM) für mich viel sympathischer. 3. ich weiß nicht wieso, aber Oguri Shun sieht zwar zottelig aus und dies und das, aber er hat was. Er hat einfach etwas. 

Kim Hyun Joong ist zwar Prinz-hafter und hübscher, aber schauspielerisch fand ich ihn nur so lala.

10. Besitzt ihr Fangirl-Artikel? Wenn ja was? Wenn nein, eventuell Alben, DVDs? Von wem?

- Ein Schlüsselanhänger von DBSKs Jaejoong. Anfangs wollte ich ihn meiner Schwester schenken, aber ich behielt ihn dann doch für mich. Mein Vater und ich spaßen die ganze Zeit, dass er mein Ehemann ist (und ich ihn aus diesem Grund an meinem Schlüsselbund hängen hab...) Er ist einfach hübsch und meiner Meinung nach (oder war, ich weiß nicht wie er sich verändert hat) auch männlich. Man darf ja träumen. 

P.S.: Ich glaube, dass  "eventuell Alben, DVDs" zu Fan(girl)-Artikeln gehören.....

11. Würde ein asiatischer Ehemann/Ehefrau in Frage kommen? Begründung!

- Klar, wieso nicht. Ich bin doch selbst asiatischer Abstammung. Ich stehe sowieso mehr auf Braunhaarige :P

Now that all the questions are answered, I will ask 11 questions myself (I'll definitely find somebody of my friends with a blog):

1. Which place in Asia would you like to travel to?

2. Which of the following character would you like to end up with happily ever after? Goo Yong Ha - Sungkyunkwan Scandal (playful but smart), Hong Gil-Dong - Hong Gil-Dong (strong and just) or Kang Shin Woo - You're Beautiful (reserved but princelike)? (Answer only if you know all the mentioned names)

3. If there was a magic gum that allows you to speak a different language fluently, which would you choose it to be?

4. When you go on a vacation, which activity do you prefer? 1. swimming at the beach, 2. touring the city, or 3. walk into the nature climbing mountains

5. Which three objects/or people would you bring with you to a deserted island?

6. Have you ever had thoughts about wanting to be another film character in a certain drama or movie? Who would you like to be and what would you like to change?

7. If you could choose between being an animal of your choice or being of the different gender, what would you like to experience in your next life?

8. If you were an animal, would you prefer to be an animal on the land, in the water or in the sky?

9. Has any non-Asian person talked to you about Asian dramas or movies before?

10. Have you ever read a book surrounding Asia before (I do not mean a travelguide)?

11. If you are Asian and like many of us have a small body, would you like to stay this small or rather change to being as big as your other non-Asian friends? If you are not Asian, what do you like about Asians? :)

Well that's it for me!! (^°^) Byyye!

Lovely Kimmy~~

Hotel Mama

Here I am,

finally (!!!) graduated from High School in Germany after 13 years of discipline (meaning waking up too early to even think), smartness (most of the time, I didn't get that part right) and/or (mainly) comradeship.

I swear to all of my books that I've read in school (which I would have probably burned down by now if it were not for my love towards books) that school wasn't so bad (since my school books aren't worth much, this statement about school being okay won't count anymore in about 10 min from when I end this blog entry). 

I mean, I've made some friends, then lost a few friends, and made new ones at another school (yes, Point Grey, I miss you and our precious time together) and solidified comradeship over time. Not that this was the most important aspect of school (well it can be, in case of starting your social life) but it helps pushing all the studying aspects and i-hate-teachers-and-their-homework-aspect aside for a while. Just until the time you become a Senior in High School, you can enjoy your time to the fullest! I remember talking with a friend about how I used to freak out when I missed the first bus home and got scared that my parents would worry immediately. Seriously, don't worry about your grades until you hit 10th Grade. I shouldn't have worried about my Math German and English grades (I will not list any other subject since it will make me look stupid next to all the other millions of smart Asians my age) in 7th or 8th Grade (I was in a horrible state, excuse me ò.ó!)

I've just googled being a Senior (because I wasn't too sure if this word is used in Canada as well - I didn't hear it when I was there) and at the "see also" part, a term called senioritis came up. You wanna know what it means? :) Sure you want, the only people reading my blog entries are either stupid or students around my age (plus minus 5-10 years of age difference):
It is a disease of disinterest or lack of motivation to study that seems to only haunt the Senior students or students nearing their graduation. Use the urban dictionary, it's fun because apparently, the only cure for it is graduation haha :D and I think I'm speaking for all of us graduates that we have definitely experienced it coz I surely did!!! All the pressure teachers and other people put on you and all the stress with studying for exams (because it makes you crazy not to know what topic it will be) will drive you bananas (listen to Toothbrush - Wax I love this song)! 

And now that everything is over, the anticipation and the anxiety, you can relax (for about three months). If you're smart, you use it to go on vacation (deserved), find work to earn some money or I don't know anything but stay at home becoming a coach potato who misses all of the friends who actually do the first or second option. 

As you might have already guessed, I did the third option. Not willingly, circumstances brought me the honour of staying at home the whole time. 
How do I use this free time? I read (or I try to read because the four books I ordered still didn't arrive...I feel like I'm deprived of books), meet with a few friends when they have the time and the nerve to bear with me and go shopping with my parents (mostly my mom). I distract myself from this loneliness (of not seeing my best friend for three weeks) by rearranging my book shelves, writing unfinished stories (free time and boredom really inspire me!) and talking to my newly aquired bottle:

Isn't it cuuuuuuuuuuuuute? Yes it is, I already know the answer hah!

Okay, look at my pitiful self, I better go to sleep and forget about my loneliness because tomorrow I will finally get a dvd full of photos of my prom and I hope there will be acceptable photos of me with my friends. 
Ciao,

Lovely Kimmy~~

Previously on Loliipopz..

So what has happened so far? How bout some random pictures, showing what 2012 has got to give!

In April, I turned 18 and got a little surprise party organised by my dear friend M.!! Thanks a lot for my first and best surprise party ever!
Take a look at this.

My birthday:

 Not much to say actually. I was kidnapped by my friends (a whole bunch of idiots,..nice people,..girls) who at first, dressed me up with a party hat and a weird t-shirt that says: "Already 18 but still lives with mommy" (which I got as a present from a friend's dad :D my only comment: ...LOL) After great efforts of opening all the presents and throwing away wrapping paper, we split into I don't know how many groups and drove to Narnia (translation: an American-style diner which offers reaaalllyy good hamburgers and milkshakes *.*).  Totally made my day ;) Thanks girls! ;* 

My sister got me a photoshoot as a present, and here are the results of Lara. Thanks again!

My present:

Our parents should be proud to have such two cuties as their children! Must be an awesome feeling to have us at home :)) 
Look at what a great couple we make! Now that I look at these two photos, it seems like we're ying and yang: Never without the other.

We had so much luck to have the sun on our side that day since it had started to rain these days! Usually, that beach is quite crowdy as I heard but we were the only ones (so a place to change was no longer a problem :P). However, the sun was reaaaally bright and so we often needed our sunglasses. Still cool right?

                   These two pictures are pretty well done. I must say we look a lot better alone

If you look at these two pictures up above, you'll know how my sister and I are at home...pretty funny, ain't we? :D But it's actually true..we REALLY are like that.

So, some of you might know that I've been on a Germany tour during summer holidays with two of my lovely cousins! I've seen a totally different world to me and enjoyed it pretty much! Thanks again to my BanhBao friend and dogpower as well as my genius and cutiepie! <3 Love rulez

This Summer:

I really love the many beautiful sides of Germany! We've seen a lot, experienced a lot and enjoyed it a lot! That's all that counts!   It's us three against the world! Don't expect too much..How many cities did we visit? Let's count...1..2..3.:

Dresden, Passau, München, Darmstadt, Hamburg, Berlin, Bremen, Köln, Aachen, and some smaller cities near Rhein- Ruhr! :))
Would we do it again? Definitely and recommended!

Even if it is only for the purpose of taking a closer look at the surroundings of potential universities for us, it was so much fun and the weather was nice and sunny. Just the feeling of needing a map (or google maps) to get around was exciting ;> that was our very own adventure!  

No words needed to describe the atmosphere! Just LOVE <3

So next on the list is our class trip to England, not many photos but a great memory: Viva English LK, Gellert! Thanks for the great last memories of us all together. 

England:

Look at that sky!!! Unfortunately, we did not have this nice weather all the time..we weren't even allowed to go swim in the sea...well, it was too cold anyway.. There was a cliff, called the White Cliffs. Great view and quite windy but a great place to chill out.
We had a bus with us at all times to get from our bungalow park in Kingsdown to for example: Canterburry, London or Dover. Canterburry is reaaaalllyy nice, has many but cute smaller boutiques, is a rather smaller city but has a nice feeling to it. Those of you who like it loud and busy, London offers you rain, people with no sense whatsoever for road traffic and an m&m world. Smells like chocolate wherever you go.


                            

Last but not least, not an memorable event in my life but still important, a new haircut! Took me long enough to get over my fears of straight bangs. I like it though. Thanks to my new fav hairdresser!

New Haircut:

That's about all that has happened so far in my life in 2012. Let me express lots of gratitude to all of the people mentioned above and all the others (friends, family, acquaintances) who made 2012 waaay better than I had expected! 
I will upload some more photos if I have the time or the patience or the boredom. 

Lovely me~

April is coming~

Ok I know that it has been a whiiillleee and I'm seriously sorry!My excuse as always: School has been keeping me busy since February and exams really annoyed me this time...double-shot exhausting...But for now I have my holidays and I can enjoy it not a bit totally (I have lots of homework over the holidays?! HELLOO?? I have to read two books, one for German and one for French class, 13 pages a day; not that it's much to read but that is just too much school in my free days for me..).

So how are you all going to enjoy Easter? I guess I'm visiting my grandma again this year, as always :) maybe I'll get to meet my relatives *.* ok
What's up next in my schedule? Well, I'm going to watch the Hunger Games in the theaters tmr! And I'm going to have a real nice girls'-movie-and-gossip-night-while-eating-and-drinking-all-you-can-eat tmr as well. Had to rush to supermarkets to get some snacks (by duty is to get some snacks, isn't that a wonderful job to choose everything u like?) just now...-____-'

Oh aaand don't forget my birthday, I'm letting you guess the day!! It's in April, and it's during school time again...-___-''''''''''''''''''

So, gonna watch Avatar the Legend of Korra right now^^

To BanhBao friend

Thanks especially for your helpful comment :) about your idea to post some film critics or reviews: That is a really useful thought. I might try it out but I'm not too sure if I can keep it up that well since I don't really watch many movies often because of school and it keeps getting busier and busier, though, I will try it out some time! Just recently I was talking to someone about the new Sherlock Holmes and she was talking about what she liked and disliked about it like a real film critics :D

this morning on a milk pack, they offered a second cinema ticket free-of-charge when you buy one ticket for "Happy Feet 2" and also collect 4 marks from 4 milk packs :O I was like: 'Should I do it or should I not?!?!?!?!?!'


I hope in the new year and in the future I still get some more interesting comments like these in my blog!!
:* love you all!!

Happy New Year 2012!!!

I wish you all lots of love, happiness and success in the New Year 2012! Stay healthy and keep working hard and get some motivation in school/university/work and I hope you all enjoy the rest of your christmas vacation :*

What does christmas mean to you?

So how was your Christmas?!


Mine was wonderful!

It says: Merry Christmas!

First day: I spent my time at my grandma's place near Frankfurt and all my relatives gathered there and we ate a feast with lots of food that everyone made themselves and brought from home. Everyone made something different! Like a typical vietnamese family, we sat down on the floor to eat since there was not much space and the table wouldn't fit for everyone. As a dessert we had a really big pie!

Lots of fooood <3

Second day: Everyone then drove to one of the relative's house near Stuttgart. Again we had a wonderful feast which was prepared by the best ambitious cook I have ever met! The mother of my dear cousin "BanhBao" can cook ANYTHING! She made donuts on her own and baked some cookies as well!

This is like choco fondue but just with lots of fish or meat and salad!

Third day: Last stop at my aunt's house. She has a pizza restaurant....but nooo we first went to a Chinese restaurant!.....THEN we ate pizza at home in the evening :D we also rocked the party with loud music and disco lights! Fun fun fun! ;>

Conclusion: Christmas for me is a festivity which includes my whooooollleeee family and looooooooots of food :> we talk, we laugh, we sleep and we eat together, do everything together and we enjoy ourselves together! That's what I love about Christmas!

Merry Christmas :)

Heeeelllooo guys!!

I just wanted to say: enjoy your vacation! Celebrate Christmas to the fullest, don't open your gifts too fast, and make "all you can eat" have another meaning :)

What's going on on Christmas? Well, my family is meeting after such a long time and we all eat and celebrate together, exchange some presents (mainly the younger ones) and I suppose, we also go to church (my once in a year chance to do something good).

I've already got my presents from my sis coz we won't get the time to exchange gifts later on and as we don't wanna carry all the stuff around, we did it before :> pssst!

I'll upload some photos of our Christmas as soooon as I come back :> I hope you guys all enjoy Christmas with your family, if not, enjoy it anyways! and Be sure to laugh a lot since this is un événement joyeux! Also, I hope that u all get soooooooooooo many presents that will last till next Christmas ;)

so, Byeeeeeeeeee~~

Surprise surprise!!

What a nice surprise:
I'VE GOT MY DRIVER'S LICENSE!!!!! Finally, never stuck in a car with my driving teacher -__- finally, finally, finally, he was kinda annoying and the more I drove with him sitting next to me, the worse my mood got..


It's already Christmas soon, isn't it?
I've almost got all the present, still not ready but no time to even to go out and look for further presents. Fortunately, I'm going out with friends tmr :) muhahahaha


Oh yeah, I wanted to update this one pic of my self-made scarf!! It's a fox :> nice, isn't it?



Since it's late alr and I lack sleep since I began getting those driving lessons (three months ago...), having teacher trainees in almost each class (srsly, they are soooo annoying!!), being exhausted from playing basketball (draining my last bit of energy of the day), I should say good night and til next time!!


I'll give u some more updates and posts now that I have more time to do so - sorry that i didnt post anything at all lately.


Miss you all!!

Songs of the daay~

I'm totally so into smashing music lately :> :3 :D

Hollywood Undead - Glory

or relaxing music :> :3 :D

Three Days Grace - Last to know

End of autumn

What have I done.......in autumn break? :>

1. I've cut my hair shorter again ( I knooooow I wanted to let it grow really long but I just think short suits me better!)
2. I met up with friends (went to a cafe, or a restaurant..)
3. I made my own scarf that looks like a fox!!! (i'll upload some pics as soon as I can)

Basically, I did nothing....
Since my parents came home sick from their trip to China (two and a half weeks without parents is entirelly exhausting, though, the souvenirs are a pretty good reward after all...i'm so easily bribed..), I had no time to relax at home to enjoy some peace after so much studying for exams in school (which will continue right after break).

(Well I did have driver's lessons again this week and I have three more appointments next week which is a lot for me since it's right after school TT___TT
but that doesn't really count..I suppose, since it is somehow related to learning and working and using your brain. So yeah, nope it doesn't count as an activity in autumn break.)

Oh and yeah I DO realize that the title of this post doesn't really fit to the background, but oh well, over here it's so shiny and bright no sign of winter coming at all! I hope you forgive me :9

Stupid...

I was trying to change the layout of my blog, but I've been having some problems with my internet and it just leaves me with an "AAAARRGGGHHH!!" :x


I should try it once again another time...maybe it'll get better then!

Changes

I'm scared to change.

I fear that I might have changed the way I used to be. The way I talked, laughed, behaved in front of people. I used to be so simple, shy and quiet. What I have become? Loud, cheeky and straight-forward. Well, I accept who I am but I believe I have changed dramatically. 


I became someone who wishes to become the person I was before.
My life was in such order and peace in which I was capable of thinking with a clear mind.
My life is in such disorder and chaos in which I am even unable to see what's in front of me.

How could it have happened?
My body, mind and soul are no longer in one unit. Today I got sick and had to cancel going out with friends for the Japan Day in Düsseldorf which I was looking forward to sooo much!! Was I really that sick or did I have other things in mind...?
My mind was full of tears, desperate not knowing what to be thinking about and how to sort out some feelings which pile up recently. Have I lost focus on what is important in life and what is irrelevant...?
My soul is distressed and uneasy. Circles drawn instead of straight lines. How am I going to see what is right or wrong...?


I need time and peace. I need to calm down and sort my feelings out. I need help, though, I can't really expect any help from my friends...

Or is it just that I feel lonely being the only one left behind and forgotten in the world...?


Lovely Kimmy~
 

How school changes your attitude to life

I wish I could stay a child forever, move to the small island of the Neverland and fly with fairies. Getting older means one gets to work a lot more, one cannot play around as much as used to as a child and one needs to stay serious and focus on future. Meeeeh..


School has been so seriously stressful. I don't like it anymore..-___- though, I have to admit, it isn't as boring as in Grade 11 or before that. Even with some stricter teachers, loads of homework and a mountain of "analyze this text"-tasks, I enjoy the classes.
I'm not sure whether I like it or not ~___~


Everything considered, Obama's speech on the memorial day of 9/11 nine years after the tragedy was absolutely heartbreaking (although the sounds of airplanes near the Pentagon was kind of sarcastic), Schwarzenegger's inaugural address consisted of only techniques of persuasion rather than argumentation and Hugh Hefner is a representation for the American Dream.


The only sad thing about all this crazy and cool stuff is: I hardly see any of my friends or only for a short time since I 1. have to change schools for some classes (complicated system, do not ask), or 2. we don't have any classes together, or 3. they are nowhere to be found!!!


:(( hope you guys at least enjoy school a little!
Well see ya all
Lovely Kimmy~

I dream of a place far away from this island of work

Hi again

Just so you know, I'm in 12th grade now! :) and it's a lot of work, have to change schools sometimes as well, it is a difficult system to explain now, however, I'm doing pretty good.
Even though most of my classes are without my friends I hang out with, it's still fine. Better concentrate on class XD well, my teachers are fine, I guess, but still a little unfamiliar to me. We are discussing the American Dream in English Class (btw, my English sucks, wish I could tty all every day again)...


Oh just for those who don't know: MAI HEIR GRUU LOONGAAA!!

  

DoesenT it Luk Gud?! I no I no! ^^

Write me mails or skype with me whenever you can :) would be really happy to hear from any of you!

Love, Kimmy :*

Curing sadness

 Aloha!!

I wanna show you some pics which have a deeper meaning to me right now:

• I am kind of down lately and I just don't like being upset over little things or sad due to tiny matters. It's not worth it.
• Friends and family are being dragged down. 

My solution:
Go out with friend, talk with them about your difficulties in life, they will share their thoughts and can understand you the best.They are half of your happiness.

It doesn't have to be a trip far away, just somewhere relaxing and quiet to clear your mind and chill. You have loooots of time to think about your problems. Stress is caused by feelings of having left behind something important, worries are caused by feelings mixed together and unsorted.


My solution:
Get out for a walk in the forest, on a hill, in a parc, at the sea. Relax and forget your worries for a little while. Take your time sorting out your feelings. Scream out and let yourself go wild.

  
There is no need of destroying the thought of being sad or angry. It is natural and human. Life consists of both ups and downs. However, there is a limit to downs. Ups shall take over. Downs can cause you not only mental illness but also show on your physical health. 


My solution: No need to count calories. If one is down, eating will give you energy to take any challenge given to you. Motivation can strenghten you. I mean not to tell you to fill your stomach to its fullest, just saying: don't forget your health.

 Feeling small in the world makes you not the only one in the world. You just have to consider which environment you are in. A wide and desert-like landscape won't get you anywhere. Just imagine where the oasis is located. See a mirage? The mirage is not the oasis but the disastrous landscape.


My solution:
Look at this picture. I do not feel lonely under those beautiful trees. However, they make me do weird poses...




All in all, I say it is alright to be sad, upset or feel lonely once in a while. Why not? I mean life isn't a fairytale in which a prince comes to rescue you. NOO WAAY! In my little tiny world I want to be able to save myself and be a heroine myself. Why let the prince get all the praise if I could as well? I'm not saying I want to be a princess or anything (no hahaha....^^ keke) but all I'm trying to say is that accepting your bad feelings is good. A very fine start. But getting over it is even better. I don't want to make others worry, so I'll try my best and get this done!

Thanks for reading through this chaotic stuff...if u read through it, at all..
Anyways, I had fun talking about it :) it's good for you too!
Hope you guys are doing fine over there and don't stress yourselves out!


Lovely Kimmy~ smiling again^^ 

...there's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost...

 

Name is Kimmy. Age? 17. Occupation? Highschool girl trying to be optimistic each and every day. Fail. Hobbys? Being pessimistic and taking others down with me. Feeling sorry for friends and family who have to bear with me.

At bad times, tea heals your soul. Warming up the body and mind. 

Ice cream heals wounds. Cooling down your bad thoughts and refreshing your optimism to a new beginning.

Music destroys your pessimism. Unable to sort your feelings? Songtexts have a deeper meaning, maybe even matching to your situation. Identify yourself. Feel understood.

Love revives your happiness. There is no cure to sadness or loneliness other than to love and being loved. 

I should go out and take a walk to clear my mind from anything keeping me down :P fresh air makes you feel free. I wish I could fly like bird.

Lovely Kimmy~~

P.S.: Sorry for not smiling today...