Songs of the daay~

I'm totally so into smashing music lately :> :3 :D

Hollywood Undead - Glory

or relaxing music :> :3 :D

Three Days Grace - Last to know

End of autumn

What have I done.......in autumn break? :>

1. I've cut my hair shorter again ( I knooooow I wanted to let it grow really long but I just think short suits me better!)
2. I met up with friends (went to a cafe, or a restaurant..)
3. I made my own scarf that looks like a fox!!! (i'll upload some pics as soon as I can)

Basically, I did nothing....
Since my parents came home sick from their trip to China (two and a half weeks without parents is entirelly exhausting, though, the souvenirs are a pretty good reward after all...i'm so easily bribed..), I had no time to relax at home to enjoy some peace after so much studying for exams in school (which will continue right after break).

(Well I did have driver's lessons again this week and I have three more appointments next week which is a lot for me since it's right after school TT___TT
but that doesn't really count..I suppose, since it is somehow related to learning and working and using your brain. So yeah, nope it doesn't count as an activity in autumn break.)

Oh and yeah I DO realize that the title of this post doesn't really fit to the background, but oh well, over here it's so shiny and bright no sign of winter coming at all! I hope you forgive me :9

Stupid...

I was trying to change the layout of my blog, but I've been having some problems with my internet and it just leaves me with an "AAAARRGGGHHH!!" :x


I should try it once again another time...maybe it'll get better then!

Changes

I'm scared to change.

I fear that I might have changed the way I used to be. The way I talked, laughed, behaved in front of people. I used to be so simple, shy and quiet. What I have become? Loud, cheeky and straight-forward. Well, I accept who I am but I believe I have changed dramatically. 


I became someone who wishes to become the person I was before.
My life was in such order and peace in which I was capable of thinking with a clear mind.
My life is in such disorder and chaos in which I am even unable to see what's in front of me.

How could it have happened?
My body, mind and soul are no longer in one unit. Today I got sick and had to cancel going out with friends for the Japan Day in Düsseldorf which I was looking forward to sooo much!! Was I really that sick or did I have other things in mind...?
My mind was full of tears, desperate not knowing what to be thinking about and how to sort out some feelings which pile up recently. Have I lost focus on what is important in life and what is irrelevant...?
My soul is distressed and uneasy. Circles drawn instead of straight lines. How am I going to see what is right or wrong...?


I need time and peace. I need to calm down and sort my feelings out. I need help, though, I can't really expect any help from my friends...

Or is it just that I feel lonely being the only one left behind and forgotten in the world...?


Lovely Kimmy~
 

How school changes your attitude to life

I wish I could stay a child forever, move to the small island of the Neverland and fly with fairies. Getting older means one gets to work a lot more, one cannot play around as much as used to as a child and one needs to stay serious and focus on future. Meeeeh..


School has been so seriously stressful. I don't like it anymore..-___- though, I have to admit, it isn't as boring as in Grade 11 or before that. Even with some stricter teachers, loads of homework and a mountain of "analyze this text"-tasks, I enjoy the classes.
I'm not sure whether I like it or not ~___~


Everything considered, Obama's speech on the memorial day of 9/11 nine years after the tragedy was absolutely heartbreaking (although the sounds of airplanes near the Pentagon was kind of sarcastic), Schwarzenegger's inaugural address consisted of only techniques of persuasion rather than argumentation and Hugh Hefner is a representation for the American Dream.


The only sad thing about all this crazy and cool stuff is: I hardly see any of my friends or only for a short time since I 1. have to change schools for some classes (complicated system, do not ask), or 2. we don't have any classes together, or 3. they are nowhere to be found!!!


:(( hope you guys at least enjoy school a little!
Well see ya all
Lovely Kimmy~

I dream of a place far away from this island of work

Hi again

Just so you know, I'm in 12th grade now! :) and it's a lot of work, have to change schools sometimes as well, it is a difficult system to explain now, however, I'm doing pretty good.
Even though most of my classes are without my friends I hang out with, it's still fine. Better concentrate on class XD well, my teachers are fine, I guess, but still a little unfamiliar to me. We are discussing the American Dream in English Class (btw, my English sucks, wish I could tty all every day again)...


Oh just for those who don't know: MAI HEIR GRUU LOONGAAA!!

  

DoesenT it Luk Gud?! I no I no! ^^

Write me mails or skype with me whenever you can :) would be really happy to hear from any of you!

Love, Kimmy :*

Curing sadness

 Aloha!!

I wanna show you some pics which have a deeper meaning to me right now:

• I am kind of down lately and I just don't like being upset over little things or sad due to tiny matters. It's not worth it.
• Friends and family are being dragged down. 

My solution:
Go out with friend, talk with them about your difficulties in life, they will share their thoughts and can understand you the best.They are half of your happiness.

It doesn't have to be a trip far away, just somewhere relaxing and quiet to clear your mind and chill. You have loooots of time to think about your problems. Stress is caused by feelings of having left behind something important, worries are caused by feelings mixed together and unsorted.


My solution:
Get out for a walk in the forest, on a hill, in a parc, at the sea. Relax and forget your worries for a little while. Take your time sorting out your feelings. Scream out and let yourself go wild.

  
There is no need of destroying the thought of being sad or angry. It is natural and human. Life consists of both ups and downs. However, there is a limit to downs. Ups shall take over. Downs can cause you not only mental illness but also show on your physical health. 


My solution: No need to count calories. If one is down, eating will give you energy to take any challenge given to you. Motivation can strenghten you. I mean not to tell you to fill your stomach to its fullest, just saying: don't forget your health.

 Feeling small in the world makes you not the only one in the world. You just have to consider which environment you are in. A wide and desert-like landscape won't get you anywhere. Just imagine where the oasis is located. See a mirage? The mirage is not the oasis but the disastrous landscape.


My solution:
Look at this picture. I do not feel lonely under those beautiful trees. However, they make me do weird poses...




All in all, I say it is alright to be sad, upset or feel lonely once in a while. Why not? I mean life isn't a fairytale in which a prince comes to rescue you. NOO WAAY! In my little tiny world I want to be able to save myself and be a heroine myself. Why let the prince get all the praise if I could as well? I'm not saying I want to be a princess or anything (no hahaha....^^ keke) but all I'm trying to say is that accepting your bad feelings is good. A very fine start. But getting over it is even better. I don't want to make others worry, so I'll try my best and get this done!

Thanks for reading through this chaotic stuff...if u read through it, at all..
Anyways, I had fun talking about it :) it's good for you too!
Hope you guys are doing fine over there and don't stress yourselves out!


Lovely Kimmy~ smiling again^^